me time!

ever get the feeling like somehow, there's like a million ppl around you, but u feel things slowing down and feel like ur the only person really on the planet?(assuming im really actually a person, n not an alien life form from Mars like i'd always suspected....)

i've been used to being in crowds so much and always a group of people that i'd forgotten what its like to be just Salma Sakeena, and not "oh, that girl whose always with......." or stuck in a gang of people and feeling lost. i think sometimes we choose to be with certain people to feel safe and secure from the perceptions of those around us that judge and say "hey, whose that guy/girl?why is she always alone?doesnt she have any friends?..."

We don't hear the words but we feel them. Its like a stare coming from a person behind u in class. I'll admit, i've done this before. Some found it surprising that i feel insecure and all that craplah, but i do. But i've realized something that can only be gained through exprience(even tho it sucked)....that i don't need to assert myself in that manner. I don't need to join a group of ppl to make me feel complete. 1 or 2 dear friends who really care and stick by u are enuf in life. i guess im just not that type to care for being in crowds that much(plus the fact that i dont really know how to lyn org sgt..ehehe) I feel free to roam around and tegur those i've never even spoken to before and its awesome to feel that im not labeled as the gossip queen or or drama king/queen(at least i think im notlah haha).

So....the motto for me this semester would be 'Be with those u are comfortable with and those with genuine friendshipness(if thats a word;-))' and so far, i've been the happiest i've ever been.

and thats all that matters;-)