Mean & Serene Musings

cuti,cuti,cuti...and some experiences..

2010-12-09T01:02:00.003+08:00

it's been a month of cuti and not much has been going on,i guess..baking almost everyday(carrot cake paling laku), kemas umah, lipat baju, sidau baju, masak n every other thing that's required of the anak dara yg cuti pnjg kt rumah..huhu..hey, i aint complaining!(actually i am;-p) but i hate it when my parents actually order me to do chores..its like,"hey!i wanna lipat bajula today" says myself. then jap lg my dad comes around and says "keena!lipat baju ni.." then tros xde mood nk buat..hehee..anak soleh gile bab..haha..

thank god,esok gi singapore!!universal studios!! In my lifetime up to this momentlah, i've been to universal twice.first time, when i was abt 5 yrs old in florida pegi skali disney world. second time, 10 yrs later we went to florida again, both Universal and Disney. and both times it was........AWESOME! eventho in a few hours ill only be going to the one in singapore and not US, for me it feels like a new chapter but old memories are refreshed in my mind. i like that feeling...i miss my childhood when i was growing up kt US and the only worry i had was what would barbie wear for the picnic with Ken.but i do enjoy life now too though...but there will always be ups and downs.life doesn't remain static and we keep growing older. thats why memories are so important to keep and to keep on making them.we'll see how the memory-making goes tomorrow huh?:-)

some experiences are new to me this year..like tonight, for instance. I just sorta realized that my mood or happiness now doesn't depend solely on myself anymore. There are other ppl in my life now that affect it..i'm not too sure if its a bad thing or a good thing...at the moment,it feels like a bad one. its like im freakin happy coz il be going to singapore in a few hrs, but then i know when i come back there'll be a nagging feeling abt someone im close to who i sorta fought with...huhu..i dont really like it.i dont feel as independent or strong as i used to.i feel vulnerable, and that's something i'm too familiar with and wanna try to avoid......but...despite all that, the reward of opening urself up to others and sharing ur life with loved ones, i admit, is probably worth all that trouble...it's hard sometimes,sure..but maybe, that vulnerability shows that ur heart has grown in order for others to be apart of it? doesn't that show that u've become stronger?

i dont know...

i used to think that instead of hurting urself or risking heartache or pain, play it safe and i'll be ok..but sometimes, it's good to shake things up a lil bit.taking a leap of faith every once in a while can surprise you..u just gotta be strong and say to urself............

'nah, you'll be ok'

and u know wat.....i just might be;-)

me time!

2010-09-28T18:14:00.003+08:00

ever get the feeling like somehow, there's like a million ppl around you, but u feel things slowing down and feel like ur the only person really on the planet?(assuming im really actually a person, n not an alien life form from Mars like i'd always suspected....)

i've been used to being in crowds so much and always a group of people that i'd forgotten what its like to be just Salma Sakeena, and not "oh, that girl whose always with......." or stuck in a gang of people and feeling lost. i think sometimes we choose to be with certain people to feel safe and secure from the perceptions of those around us that judge and say "hey, whose that guy/girl?why is she always alone?doesnt she have any friends?..."

We don't hear the words but we feel them. Its like a stare coming from a person behind u in class. I'll admit, i've done this before. Some found it surprising that i feel insecure and all that craplah, but i do. But i've realized something that can only be gained through exprience(even tho it sucked)....that i don't need to assert myself in that manner. I don't need to join a group of ppl to make me feel complete. 1 or 2 dear friends who really care and stick by u are enuf in life. i guess im just not that type to care for being in crowds that much(plus the fact that i dont really know how to lyn org sgt..ehehe) I feel free to roam around and tegur those i've never even spoken to before and its awesome to feel that im not labeled as the gossip queen or or drama king/queen(at least i think im notlah haha).

So....the motto for me this semester would be 'Be with those u are comfortable with and those with genuine friendshipness(if thats a word;-))' and so far, i've been the happiest i've ever been.

and thats all that matters;-)

long time no write:-P

2010-09-23T00:32:00.006+08:00

whoa!its been half a year since my last entry..gile lama..but seriously..i miss writing for myself.most of the time now im writing for assignments or essays and all that.i've forgotten how it felt like to just take a pen (or keyboardlah) and just write my thoughts down or what i'm feeling. and lemme tell ya, i sure ain't feeling writing abt the Federal Constitution of Msia and the conflicts of amendments! But writing that secures my future and i damn well want a happy one with lotsa success and money in it;-)

Lotsa stuff have happened since the past 6 months and im not sure if i should really share abt it on this blog or not. I hate it when i hear people fighting over what that person said about that person on a blog, or what that someone said abt him/her on his facebook status and all that crap. shit..get a life guys.i mean, its ur rite to write what u want on ur blog, but come on guys- u know ur expecting that person ur kutuk-ing to read it and feel that dagger to his or her heart.even if u were'nt, there's still that possibility!if u were so intent on using a blog as an 'outlet to ur emotions', then privitize or sumthingla.or even better, there's this thing called CONFRONTATION or TALKING ABT IT.when u do it on a blog and u have tons of readers, of course people are gonna read it and put two and two togther and figure out who it is.ur life no longer becomes ur own, but it seems like u live it for others. like how some people have lotsa attention bcos they know alotta gossip ABOUT OTHER PEOPLE (no offence to anyone in particular, tapi kalu ade terasa, ko la tu.hahaha...)

i get it that some people cant face problems face 2 face all the time.heck, im part of that group!but there comes a time when we gotta be mature. do we have to air it to the world to see and expose urself too much?do people do it so that their readers will have fun reading it, or becoz they actually crave approval from the crowd and standing ovations for the things that they did or say in blogs?

this is just an opinion of mine.don't like it, then don't read it.i dont give a damn:-)

more later abt life..huhu..

wonders of uitm shah alam

2010-03-11T19:37:00.002+08:00

Dammit.thats the word i can sum up from being here in shah alam.compare it to kuantan and its like comparing a lamborghini to a basikal..weeell.maybe not THAT bad, but hey, exaggeration is encouraged in the world of literature,aint it;-)

Why do i say its that bad?Heres a list:

- everyone's freakin smart

- mall's arent that nice in shah alam(xde brands outlet ngan FOS kot!!)

- pushing and shoving on the bus is a WAJIB skill

- its crowded gile

- my room's hot!

- stuf's expensive

- takde TELUK CEMPEDAK nak overnight

- ABG SEKILAU dh takde

- lecturers seem unapproachable and scary

- subjects are hard

- for once, i feel that i might actually fail

- uitm SHAH ALAM berbukit bukau like MOUNT KILIMANJARO

the list can go on and on...but of course to make myself feel better, i must make another list of the pros rite!sigh...canlah.here goes:

- closer to home in jb

- near kl can jalang2

- got wider range of guys to CUCI MATA;-D hehe

- make more frens

- more variety in ppl and food

- got swimming pool and sports complex

even if i had 50 good stuf to say abt shah alam,itl never compare to Kuantan i guess. when your heart's in a place for so long,its hard to get it back and learn to like another.Watever it is, i gotta start kicking butt and do my best.

oh yeah, HAHA "comey" AND MUN lawa...requests dri bilik 30 MAWAR for cheap publicity in my blog..hehehe...

stupid stuff that happens when my sis is around..

2009-12-12T12:48:00.004+08:00

My older sis Sarah was back for a week last week.UIA kejam gilee, cuti sminggu je kowt!isk3,so sad:-(

we went jalang2 around kl n perak n stuf, but the thing is when ur with ur sister,u cud sit tepi longkang and still have lotsa fun...not that thats what we dola ok..we're not THAT weird..lol..

so in kl, me n sare were walking around bukit bintang n just usha2-ing stuff jual tepi jalan n all n we stopped at this iranian restaurant cuz we were craving for grape leaves and baklava which is sedap nk mampos!so my dad asked the guy working thr if they had it b4 going in,and well, being me,a person deprived of being able to usha good-looking guys cuz in jb there aren't many!, i sorta give him a 2nd look.....ok2,maybe more like a 3rd n 4th look.he had like the most mancung-est nose ever!i cudnt help myself..it may be due to the fact that i have an exact opposite of his so jakun ckit kot.ANYWAY, i gave the special 'check-out-that-guy-but-don't-be-too-obvious-cuz-nnt-die-perasan' look to my sis....sheesh,i might as well have just turned her head to stare at him teros.she TRIED to make it look like nk cover line konon,but man,did she suck at it!she sorta made a half circular motion with her head n looked up to the sky while looking at the guy..then the guy started snickering n senyum2 kambing at her.talk about being inconspicuous!...he wasnt even hot,i just liked his nose..huhu..he prob got all perasan n bangga..oh well,maybe we made his day a lil brighter.dpt pahala..hehe..

next time,at bukit merah water park pulak, me n sarah were playing on the platforms and wood jungle set or sumthing like that.at the time,we were addicted to 'The Temptations-My Girl' and we'd break into the song anytime and anywhr.n i mean it..ANYTIME. So my lil sis, suhail, was with us n she ran off sumwhr in front of us to the giant mushroom that had water pouring over it so that it was like a huge umbrella.i started to voice the guitar part of the song "TENG..TENG,TENG,TENG,TENG,TENG,TENG!" then sarah went, "i've got sunshiiine...on a clooouudy daay,"...we started singing and dancing around the mushroom like lunatics.. No one was around so we were like 'aw,what da heck'....or so we thought....

me n sarah tgh syok sndiri doing our very own musical n playing cak2 peekaboo around the mushroom while singing rite n suhail was just watching us dari tepi..at least thats WHAT WE THOUGHT. I turned to my lil sis n was smiling my head off when i suddenly realized that it wasn't my "lil sis" that was staring at us like we were a bunch of...yes,lunatics. since when did suhail have sepet eyes and wear a 2 piece barbie swimsuit?(my sis was wearing a dark blue onepiece). more importantly, when did she switch races n turn into Chinese?.........

all i thought was..oh SHIT.this is EMBARASSING duuuuude!

i screamed for no reason (i tend to do that when im embarassed) n ran off n found my REAL sister standing at a different mushroom.

me n sarah cracked up for 10 mins straight.

aaaah,thats how it is when we're together:-)

Things i wish for..

2009-11-16T23:14:00.002+08:00

I wish that......

I could've gotten an A in my law paper or a higher CGPA of 3.6 or 3.7..

I could be a better debater..

I had alotta money to splurge on..

I had a license by now!

I had a car(once i got my licencela)

I was beautiful and slim..

I will find my soulmate the first time i ever come into a relationship..

I will actually find "him" soon and maybe learn to love..

I had more courage to try pursue the one i like and the dreams i have..

I had better guitar playing skills..

I believed in myself more and not doubt my capabilities..

I had a more rajin brother!

I had learnt to play the piano and read music of Beethoven or Bach..

I will one day publish a novel or book internationally known..

I will lead the life of my dreams...

.........i wish that i could learn to appreciate what i have in life now than to wish for better things, because its what we make of what we already have that makes life the best.

1 month gone..

2009-11-16T22:46:00.002+08:00

It's been more than a month since my last post..i guess i kinda lost my interest in blogging abit since then.it just doesn't feel the same as writing in a diary i guess.abit impersonal perhaps? but then there's always the argument that u can always privatize it n all that shit..i guess i could but then,sharing what u think and feel to others around u even if ppl dont read ur blog does have a certain charm to it as well;-)

i can't open up much tho.i don't think i can share certain feelings that are private.i don't like the feeling of being so transparent in front of others. Being read like an open book, where people know who u are just by looking at you or reading ur blog. I still prefer the act of meeting up with ppl and having a long conversation with full eye contact. Im kinda weird i guess, i can't talk to sum1 who doesn't look u in the eye when their talking. Eye contact is so underrrated!

It's not very often that u get this warm feeling and u feel a kinda happy glow when u talk to sum1.if that happens to me with a guy,yep, he's a keeper!hehehe..i really appreciate sum1 who can look into ur eyes and see u, instead of just hearing u or knowing that ur there..

God did make eyes for human for a reason, didnt he? (xcept that of course we'd look weird without them n we'd be bumping into alot if we couldn't see)

so why not use them to the fullest and see things deep to the core?

Finding a safe haven among friends..

2009-10-12T23:56:00.003+08:00

They say that home is where the heart is..and my heart has found a place in each and every friend that i've come to know here in campus.

Shubby - who was there to lend a shoulder to cry on when i was weak and hurt..
Haz - who always knew when something wasn't right and cared to ask..
Sab - who was always just there to understand whenever i had a problem..
Atiq - who seems like the blur type of person but in reality, knew when to listen..
Haha - who always knew the right thing to say and gave me confidence and support whenever i doubted myself(even if she liked to tickle me ALOT)..
Ila - who gave me her trust and friendship in the end finally to me when i needed it..
Mun - who seemed to respect and honour me for who i truly am in my heart,and not linger on my shortcomings..
Anis - who i could rely on to always make me feel like im needed or wanted..
Ashrul - who was there when i needed someone to talk to most and to understand but not condemn..
Afi - who understood and shared the same feelings or opinions and always knew how to cheer me up..
Nana - who made me feel like the meanest person on earth coz she's so freakin nice!;-)
Rey - the kindest and caring person i know even ifhe did freak me out with his "may reynaldo hendrick rest in peace- from family" msg at 3am during bulan puase..

Beside these guys, so many more awesome people out there have earned a piece of my heart. Along with my heart, i have also found my home whenever i'm with them.
thank u..

Home, sweet home, guys:-)

kampong time!

2009-09-18T15:56:00.002+08:00

we left yesterday at around 7.30am from JB to bukit merah,perak after taking some photos with our beloved van..waaaaaah!gonna mish u:-(

smpai around 2pm pastu cm lapar gile.hee~..so tidola kami utk mengurangkan rase lapar itu yer..huhu..3 hours later dh nak dekat time buke.teruk gile right?;-p

me n sarah lap tingkap tadi n saw a ton of telur lipas or cicak or watdahell im not sure lah but it was groooosss..xpe,skali setahun kene buat kan..sitting around here, im really starting to miss campus life actually. its not that i don't have a life or that being around family isnt enuf for me...i just miss it. i miss my classmates, my roomates (haha,moon,atiq and ila!!!!rindu gile bapak korang!) and just everyone in kuantan.cant wait to see u guys again.hopefully ill be able to bring sum baked stuf:-)

study??mood xde lagi plak..i need some driving force to inspire me man!heeeelp!

wouldnt it be cool if i could just upload all that info in my head? best nk mampos hidop..

but then again, thats what separates us humans against robots huh?

smiles and frowns

2009-09-10T03:05:00.003+08:00

YAY!

public speaking's over, finally.it went ok, gotta few laughs..(thank god!) despite the fact that SOME idiots were calling my handphone while i was using it as a stopwatch kat depan sume.dahla x silent!benciiii....huuu..xpe2,kene marah ngan aku sebijik kat depan td..puas ati wooo...hahaha..

my fren made a touching speech abt us becoming future lawyers and how we all need to work hard together to make it to shah alam. it was awesome and made me feel like crying.been feeling like that these past few days,PMS kowt ;-P

tomorow's the last day of class......

if God would grant me one wish..

can i turn back time?

if not,

will u allow these memories of mine here in kuantan be embedded in my mind and heart forever?

if we separate, will you help us all to find success and to one day find each other again in a warm embrace?

Here..i've had memories that made me smile, and i've had memories that made me cry.
but, i would never change a single thing of these memories ive collected.
cuz it's all been with the people i love...

and that's what matters most.

so since today's our last day, i'm gonna cherish it like hell and have fun;-)

gelak melepaskan tension

2009-09-09T02:23:00.002+08:00

got public speaking in a few hours n im freaking out!i know ppl say that i don't have to worry abt it cuz im a debater n all, but somehow, i always feel like i'm not good enough. why i wonder? hmmm..

i'll be talking about the power of smiling.inspiration came while me n a few frens were at bilik diskusi imitating people's smiles sambil amik gmbar.jahat gak ek kitorang..huhu..im contemplating whether nk balik awal ke x in order sempat to say goodbye to our van.i think i need closure before i can let it go..

tadi bukak puase ramai2 kt depan masjid negeri with half of our class. the other half pegi menyundal kt mane plak ntah;-) it was very sweet and fun. i really luv my classmates!saying goodbye to some of them after we're done here in 3 weeks isn't something i look forward too:-( we've become a family that's been together for months and we know each other inside out. we laugh, we cry, we get scolded by our lecturers together. they're my world and i don't wanna lose em.i pray that most of u will go to shah alam guys!

in my room, with my freaky roomates rolling around laughing on the bed, i can't help but wonder if it is possible to feel this happy without any consequences? (rite now, the consequences are the freakin' nyamuks that are biting my leg!) will i ever be this happy when im gone from here?

i doubt it.

but, rite now, im as happy as i can be..with new frens and old frens all around me, i believe i can go through anything. even if its a 10 min public speaking speech;-)

Farewell Dear Friend

2009-09-06T18:25:00.005+08:00

How do you say goodbye to a such a faithful presence in your life that's been around for 18 years?

You simply can't.
Truth be told, i don't ever want to.

Mom called me a few hours ago and we started borak-ing for while. The next words she said broke my heart.

"Oh, we got a buyer for the van! They'll be picking it up next week".

My eyes instantly filled up . Tears rolled down my cheeks and my voice wavered as i tried to convince her not to sell the van. But her mind was set.

I don't expect people to understand. I know it sounds stupid to be crying over a "thing", an item, an object or whatnot--- but frankly speaking... i don't give a shit.

I love this van as much as i love my family. I love it more than any pet i've ever owned. I think i love it more than i love some my friends even.

Why?

My parents bought this van when i was a year old, in 1991 in America. It is a navy blue Previa, which is now called an Estima here in Malaysia. I grew up in USA with this van. Most of my most special memories were of when we lived there. My dad sending me to school, camping trips, going to the park, learning to ride the bicycle, driving to Disney World and so much more. When i gave up learning to ride the bicyle and i was crying bcause of the bruises i got from falling off, Abah would simply scoop me up, put me in the front seat and we would just drive around the neighbourhood. It always calmed me and made me feel better.

When you're a little kid and everything seems so big and intimidating to you, being in that van was like a shield for me. It made me feel secure, safe and warm.
It was my own special 'blanket'.

When we had to move to Malaysia, i lost so much. I had to say goodbye to so many things that i grew up with- my school, my teachers, my friends, and my home. It broke me up inside. I guess the only thing that made me tahan moving was bcoz we got to bring with us as many memories and special stuff that remindd us of our time in US to Malaysia. in doing so, we got to at least preserve the memories that each item carried for us. This included our precious van.

So we packed up and stuffed the huge container with tables, chairs, sofas, toys, books, beds and last but never least--the van. It joined us in Malaysia 2 weeks later by ship.
Since the year 1998 until now, we have created more memories to last us a lifetime with that van. It is my connecting link to my childhood in US and to my teen years now in Malaysia. It harbours memories that i cannot ever relive again, but i can only remember and reminisce about from time to time.

I can't turn back time no matter how much i wish to, but i can preserve and cherish it. This van made that possible.

Now, it's being taken away from me..
I have to learn to let it go, no matter how much it hurts.

When i look at it, i see the journey my life has taken and how far i've gone and grown up. It makes me remember that i've lived a wonderful life and shall continue doing so.

I'll miss you..

Here's to you, my dear friend.

lulululululu!

2009-09-06T02:22:00.000+08:00

what happens to the mind when u are drowning in piles of work to be done but ur just too freakin lazy to do it?

it goes---------------------"lululululululululululu!"

at least thats what MINE does,but then again, i'm unique............HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA......(haha,itu saye gelak tau.bukan sebut nama awak byk2.dokyah perasan eyh)

while writing this blog, two of my rummates tgh camwhoring and memuji diri sndiri.x sangka giler.they're really weird....I LUV EM!;-p

Here's my list of things to do :

1. Study for Intro 2 Law II (tuesday)

2. Do Amas's quiz which the STUPID INTERNET CONNECTION at my campus DISCONNECTED.....cam ba alif ba ya gile..

3. Essay on Democracy in Malaysia - 1st draft due TUES

4. Public Speaking - WED

5. assignment Intro2Law due FRI

WHEEEEEEEEeeeeeeeeee........BEST NAK MAMPOS!my enthusiasm is so overwhelming that im writing in capital letters and exclamation marks.

help.me.im.going.crazy. :-P

things done by my weird roomates when they're bored

2009-09-01T23:30:00.000+08:00

haha blog stalkeeeeeerrrrrrr!!!!!this entry is dedicated to u...hehehehe.....

haha, stop stalking people. and don't geletek me or cucuk me after reading this!if not, il tell sum1 to dare sum1 to hit u sumwhere u wouldn't like...ahem2....;-p

moon tgh online gak..we saw her doing some weird dance moves kat living room tadi..hmmmm....

atiq tgh terbongkang kat katil (seperti biase..hehe..)..

ila tgh layan kitorang....sambil angau kowt....:-P

aaaand me...........................blogging sambil tgh fikir tajuk pulic speaking tomorrow while wondering y im not studying yet with zee avi's 'Honey Bee' stuck in my head.

in other words, im multitasking!Abah would be proud;-)

stomach growling...rrrr....

2009-08-25T15:07:00.000+08:00

a familiar feeling time bulan ramadhan is lapar,lapar n lapar;-) 4 more hours to go salma!i can do it!hehe...

bosan nk mampus.im actually typing this in class coz i've got nothing better to do except laugh at my seriously funny classmates

"if you like higher car, ride aeroplane", said Ehsang with his superb terengganu accent a few seconds ago.

Man, i love my freaky classmates;-P

broken hearts all around?

2009-08-24T17:11:00.000+08:00

Is it just me, or is it a bad season for sum lovin' to go wrong these past few days huh? almost everywhere i look, there seems to be some1 out there nursing a broken heart or a broken ego that is..

we always say that love is awesome, its great, its wonderful! but is it, really?

how can something so great and sweet cause so much hurt and pain in one's heart?

how can it make one feel like soaring free among the clouds at one moment and make you feel like plunging into the darkest hell hole ever in the next? i hated seeing a friend of mine hurt and crying over a stupid guy who chose another girl over someone who loves him like the sun and the stars. I know I'm bias, but i love my friend to bits! she doesn't deserve this..

is love overrated?

I try to be objective, but it's not easy when the ones you love are in pain because of love itself. I feel kinda discouraged sometimes, ya know. For someone whose never been in a relationship, it doesn't exactly give me the greatest confidence to pursue being in one.

Should i hope for something more? Or should i stick to my happy single self and just wait for God to work his magic?

The million dollar question iiiiiis.........

Would i be able to save myself if my heart got broken?

The answer:

Probably not.

So, what do i do?

I'm still searching for answers...

X MANIS!

2009-08-22T00:30:00.000+08:00

sigh..we all have things that we regret right?

mine is defined by the two simple words that go......"tak manis"!

dammit!

one fine day at bilik diskusi dlm proses menyundal and menggatal with a few very IMMATURE classmates, i was the perfect law-abiding citizen of our campus when i sat in one of its blue chairs next to my friend AKMAL.

problem: started when ashrul MENCELAH BETWEEN AKMaL N ME on the chair..

CRAP!

Yep, THATS when chaos erupted. Thelibrarian, Kak Ra with her big beady eyes and half of her face covered by an evil-looking mask (ok2,it was actually the white mask yg prevent virus 2 je) came up to us, pointed her finger at me (or at the very close proximity between me n ashrul that is) and said............

"DIK, TAK MANIS"

KEDEPEK! kene kt muke aku..........

Thought it'd stop there??nope, no way. thanks to some1's big mouth (ashrul), not only the people who were there are making fun of me, but even those yg xde kt situ pon are dissing me abt it!oh,thank u again kak ra...i even have budak2 debaters UITM jengka randomly saying "TAK MANISla SALMA" to me. Minum air sirap pon siap boleh kutuk jgk...."Hey salma, i think aa..this air like....KURANG MANISlaa", then got a *wink2* at the end of that sentence.(bonzer,benci kau!)

yep..

sweet huh?

or shall i say....'tak manis'?;-P

TWO FREAKIN' WORDS THAT CHANGED MY LIFE

2009-08-20T09:33:00.000+08:00

AAAAAAAAAAAARRRGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!

I REGRET GOING TO BILIK DISKUSI A MONTH AGO!

WHHHHhhhhyyyyyyyyyyyyyy.............

noooooooo.........

huuuuuuuuu.......

weird things i noticed

2009-08-03T08:35:00.000+08:00

i was listening to the radio n i just noticed an odd trend when ppl make songs these days. instead of starting a song with lyrics or music,they start it b y shouting our their album name like Akon or they actually introduce themselves at the beginning of it like for instance....

TAKING BACK MY LOVE
Enrique goes, "Ooowooo......Ciara!"
then Ciara goes, "Enriquee!"

AKON on the other hand, actually promotes himself!
He goes, before every song, "Konvict....music"

Cool huh? Now they don't need those little words at the bottom of the screen to introduce their songs anymore. You can shout it out as an intro!;-)

Now i know what it's like..

2009-07-27T22:11:00.000+08:00

It's easy, isn't it, to judge or condemn another human being?

When we sit on the outside and don't see what's really within.

I take back my words of dissatisfaction upon problems i hardly know,

For i've been thru an experience that has brought me to an all-time low.

I thought myself to be stronger and more courageous than most,

But how it hurts to discover that i am probably amongst the worst.

Am I overreacting or making too much of a simple situation?

How can I, when I've found out that I'm a huge misconception,

I am not brave, smart, independent or daring,

But in fact an idiot, a coward and just a meek weakling.

Life has proven to be not as safe and carefree for me now,

I can only hope that with each scary incident i will not just cower and bow,

But i will learn to fight and stand my ground,

and know that inside me is a strength so great and profound.

All I need is to believe and have the utmost faith in me,

To do what's right and be the person I expect myself to be..

Miracles Can Happen!

2009-07-16T02:59:00.000+08:00

Run for ur life! Its the end of the world as we know it!the one-eyed monster aka cyclops is coming!(sorry, God;-))

Why is it the end of the world, one might ask?
Becaaaauuuse.....

I, Salma Sakeena Bt.Mohd.Hassan, actually have a blog! Whoa, what a doozie huh...heee..

Eventhough it may not exactly have happened with my knowledge or under my orders or my permission to have created one due to a certain dude with complex childhood issues n not enough sun, but i guess i'll stick to it;-)

I'm no Shakespeare, no Jane Austen, no Stephen King and neither a John Grisham. Much as i'd crave to have the power of the pen like they do(or keyboard that is) , everyone's different and special in their own style. Every person out there has a story to tell and the way we convey it, is up to us.

Lord Byron once said -
But words are things, and a small drop of ink, falling like dew upon a thought, produces that which makes thousands, perhaps millions, think.

Never underestimate the effect of words in our lives.
We rely on them too much....

"I love you"
"Will u spend the rest of your life with me?"
"I'm here for you"'
"It's ok"
"Everythings going to be alright"

or
"Omputih,u suck!":-P

Whichever it is, there's so much expression and emotion through so little words.
I guess blogging is one way to do that as well huh?

Guess there's no harm in trying;-)

thankslah..illl give it a go:-)

Hear Me Roar

2009-07-15T13:09:00.000+08:00

WARNING!
This is my first ever blog post and it was created by a weirdo/albino/omputih by the name of amirul irfan. I am not responsible for the following bullshit he wrote:

I AM SALMA, BUT THEY CALL ME KEENSTER :P

I AM THE ORIGINAL BAND 5 IN UiTM KUANTAN!!!

MUAHAHAHAHAHA. :D

I TOTALLY ROCK.

** awww...thanks for the compliments dude!i'll keep this post in my blog just for fun..hehehe....